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[b] [u]So close, yet so far: [/u] [/b]

[b] [u]Bonus 2: How I fell in love… [/u] [/b]

Joe:

It’s been 3 weeks since we arrived at Massak's hometown, and the contrast between the cold of the gusting snow and the warmth of the villagers still surprises me.

We are resting in our quarters, me and the wolf I’ve started to feel very close to lately. I feel him stir in his sleep as he is spooning me with one of his arms wrapped around my chest. I feel his breath stirring my neck fur and hair as I think about recent events.

When we first arrived here, the situation we found ourselves was hotter than a snake’s back slithering across the outback for days. Not everyone was happy as a kid at Christmas that we were here. We’d come here to perform a wedding ceremony for the two best mates of my fluffy wolf. Since they are both men – the kind of real men who regularly risk their lives for others – most outsiders were dead set against it. As soon as we’d arrived, we were swimming in a pile of wild coyote’s shit. By acting as a team they had managed to change most people’s minds and save a kid just a few seasons old. The two of them had to pass trials while I kept watch on their “kids”. My wolf, meanwhile, had to leave to complete his own trial and help his best mate get married. I shiver as I reflect on the circumstances of our meeting.

~

I was “fresh” out of the military, discharged 2 years prior. I had seen too much battle and lost too many of my comrades, but I still loved to fly. Flying gives me a feeling of liberty and infinity, it allows me to connect to something beyond anything else, including myself, and feel at peace. I couldn’t keep that feeling of peace and continue to taint the sky red – even to defend a country. I had lost my belief in the reasons behind the battles.

Thanks to my past, I had been hired as a pilot for a private jet company and that was working out fine for me. The jets were top of the line and the pay was good. All I could hope is that I’d manage to save enough to buy my own plane one day and fly just for my pleasure. Some of my customers were real thorns in my ass while others are as smooth as oil. For sure the ladies kept trying to get me to lose my pants for a wild night; a kind of one night stand with a lower class thing. Most times I politely declined, but there were the times my body needed a release. I was still searching for something more in life, but every time I saw my scars I couldn’t help but remember all my fallen comrades. I kept my gun skills and fighting skills sharp since I served as a body guard as well. Wouldn’t want one of them to turn up in a gutter, after all. I still wasn’t sure what to do with the rest of my life…

…until that fateful day.

It was supposed to be my week off when my boss contacted me with an emergency contract. I tried to argue with him but he was like a mangy dog with his teeth locked into my leg. He said they needed someone able to defend himself with no trouble while they were doing whatever they had to do.

“You mean protect them from someone,” I’d asked, and he had sworn up and down that the friend asking for the contract was guaranteed to be a “one man army of martial arts” and just needed a pilot that could keep himself out of trouble. To sweeten the deal he had offered me a big bonus and the possibility to use the newest plane they had received fresh from the factory.

I had packed all my gear and whatever firepower I could carry along with anything else I needed to pass the time while they were doing whatever business they were up to. I wondered what kind of shady stuff they’d be getting up to, but who was I to knock someone else’s life?
I arrived at the hangar and saw that the boss had asked people to load up all kinds of gear, both for the clients and me. I wondered if the clients were that powerful or if maybe it was a prank or something. “Wouldn’t be the first time,” I muttered under my breath. My mind just kept circling around getting to fly this beauty of a bird. I grinned a bit from under the brim of my hat.


Arriving at the pick-up location, I saw it was near an exclusive beach resort. Usually reserved for cashed-up folks and the like. “Maybe if they don’t show, I’ll just treat myself to a couple days here,” I thought to myself. A little personal time never hurt. I was tinkering about and checking the cargo when I heard voices outside and went out to meet the passengers. The kid, Jake, and Massak were so shy and quiet that it was adorable.

Then he got closer and shook my hand. I don’t think I ever felt a rush like that before, sure enough not from a simple handshake. An electric shock raced from the base of my spine and up to my heart. While he was touching my hand I flew higher than I ever could on a plane. If he had touched me the first time while I was behind the stick, I’d have probably started doing stunts!  

I started checking him out more than I ever did another lad before, appreciating his build and his way of balancing himself. He had a giant smile and a long fuzzy tail that swung effortlessly behind him. “Damn, he is beautiful,” I heard my inner voice whisper, but I shook my head. “I must be needin’ a break to be thinkin’ like that.” I turned my attention to the group. The tall wolf introduced me to the passengers for this flight and I was having a hard time concentrating. His voice flowed like warm honey to my ears. I was nearly about to find an excuse to touch him again when I really looked at Kat the first time. What a damned whopper! His size really brought me back down to earth with a crash.

I talked with Lukwos a few more, enjoying his voice and attitude, and I got the feeling that neither of us wanted this moment to end. Duty first, though, and what his mates had to do seemed damn important from the worried look on Massak’s face and how Kat kept touching him to help him relax. They were adorable together and I was a bit jealous to be honest…even more so because I wasn’t able to get Lukwos out of my head.


During the whole flight I was doing my work, but sincerely I didn’t check on my passengers as often as I should have. I was more than a little jealous, especially seeing Massak sleeping peacefully against Kat. I stayed to chat a bit with Kat and realized I couldn’t have any negative feelings for the guy. Once we’d landed, I started unpacking my equipment just in case. Massak was fidgeting, trying to ready their gear, when Kat arrived in a flurry. The two adults took off like bats outta hell when Kat said something about a problem at their destination.

That day I had done my best to keep busy: catching up on my reading, cleaning my guns and anything else I could think of. In the end I used the plane satellite connection to search more information about Lukwos. I daydreamed quite a long time while browsing through the photos I’d found.
I was starting to feel out of control, so I climbed out of the plane and decided to go look for some tail. I kept telling myself that this wasn’t logical if I just needed a ‘release’ – I’d maybe think about a more feminine guy – but Lukwos was decidedly NOT feminine. Not in any way, even if he was normally very well-kept for a man, which was normal given his job.

I sauntered around town, garnering few appreciative looks that I knew would be good for a quick one night stand. Almost took one girly back to her place. Somehow when she went to kiss me I found the image of Lukwos floating in my head.

More than a little confused, I dropped the idea and went to the bar. Being the new guy I had to pass muster and drank a glass of homebrew. Once the locals were satisfied, I got to drinking and swapping stories with my new drinking buddies. Downing bottle after bottle of their homebrew, I only wanted to numb my mind and soul and not think about it anymore. Or mostly… him.

Wasn’t I a dill to think alcohol could erase that feeling inside of me.
Kat and Massak came back to find me at the bar and I had the occasion to observe them again. Massak’s reserved nature and the fond looks full of love that Kat was giving him. Looks that Massak answered with every glance. They were two blokes deep in love and not asking themselves if it was normal or not.

I got ta thinkin’ how my old buddies in the army kept going that a gay guy has to be feminine of some sorts. They figured that at least one of ‘em has gotta be the sheila of the relationship, but looking at them two blokes, I realized there was nothing feminine about them. Hell, Kat could have probably turned me into a pretzel if he wanted too but he was so friendly. Massak was sweetness wrapped up in fur but with the behavior of a real guy, just blushing for Kat.

At the end I tried to drown my emotions and growing sorrow in way more bottles than my limit.

When I woke up the next morning I had a well-deserved headache that was enough to feel like my fur was gonna fall off.

Kat and Massak were amazing and prepared me a big breakfast and about a kegger of coffee to help me out of it. And I was feeling more or less fine, until Kat mentioned Lukwos.

~

I rub Lukwos’ arm that that had wrapped around my chest gently and chuckle thinking about the difference between that time and the hot naughty we’d just had. I see his new wolf pet at the foot of the bed lift his head to give me an inquisitive look then put his muzzle back down to sleep again.

~

Turning my thoughts inward, my mind wandered back to the flight home after their mission. I swear that on the way back to where their flight started, I was more hesitant and jumpy than a virgin going to her first prom. I kept swinging between the desire to see him again and dread that I actually would.

I was disappointed and sad that day to not see him again, but I spent months trying to get him out of my head. It didn’t help that I was seeing his ads everywhere. Then there was the Christmas that sealed my fate in the loveliest fuzzy package ever created.

I’d spent the last few months drowning myself in work when an invitation to a Christmas party arrived. Reading the name signed on it, I nearly collapsed in shock. Lukwos. “I just can’t,” I thought, frantically searching for a reason to beg off. Sometime during my desperate grasping, I saw Kat on TV helping a hostage situation to rescue a group of innocents along with his Massak. That amazing scene was followed by someone introducing himself as Kat’s brother and asking about transportation to the very rage I had been trying to get out of.
At the end I couldn’t dream to find an excuse to dodge it.

When we arrived there, we were greeted by an extremely excited Kat nearly pouncing me and his brother in joy. While he seemed surprised to see me, at least I could give his brother’s flight as the reason I was here.
We spent diner talking all together and laughing while Lukwos and I kept exchanging discreet looks. It was finally time for the gift exchange and I saw Kat proposing romantically to Massak. Turning my head, I realized that Lukwos was staring at me while the two lovers were kissing. I bloody near choked on my drink.

A few hours (and drinks) later I was roaming around their big house on my own and found a picture of a young wolf being held by an older wolf, both with huge smiles when I heard Lukwos’ voice behind me: “There you are.”
I turned around, still holding the picture frame, and said “Sorry if I looked like I was snooping around, mate.”

He’d chuckled. “It’s all good, big guy. This is only a picture of me and my older brother.”

Glancing down at the picture again, I said, “I can sure see the same beautiful smile on both of you. Where is he now?”

The sudden aura of sadness around him surprised me. “He…isn’t among us anymore. Kat thinks he had the same kind of powers I did and was killed by a demon.”

I couldn’t stop myself at that moment and gathered him into my arms. In that moment, when I held him and he held me in return, that electrical jolt passed through me again. I shivered from nose to tail.

We pulled our heads back, without letting go, and our eyes met. We couldn’t bring ourselves to let go or stop staring at each other. There were no words between us – only that shared gaze. As if on cue, we both leaned into a kiss that lasted an eternity of minutes until he dragged me by the hand to his room for privacy.

My head was a whirlwind as we stumbled about his room. We broke the pash for a bit of air and found ourselves shirtless on his bed. He tossed me a sheepish look and said, “Sorry…I guess we got carried away.”

I rubbed his cheek gently, staring into his eyes, and said, “That we did. Maybe it’s a good thing we stopped…”

“You’re damned right on that part,” he murmured, shocking me. Taking a shaky breath he continued, “I finally met a great guy who I couldn’t get out of my head after months…I don’t want to rush things. I want…” He paused, taking another deep breath. “I want it to work.”

Right then I’d near thrown myself on top of him. Pinning him to the bed, we continued to kiss without a thought to the other people in the house and if they might be looking for us. We had then spent the night in each other’s arms sharing stories and kissing. Just before falling asleep I couldn’t help but think, “This might be the first time I am attracted to another guy, but this feel like the best and most meaningful start of a relationship I ever had in my 32 years of life. This feels right.”

The next morning when I was leaving, I couldn’t help but feel happy and sad at the same time. Happy I possibly found myself in a great relationship…sad I had to leave him behind, even for a moment.  That day I had given him one last kiss and we had promised to arrange our first official date as soon as possible.

We kept in contact through phone calls and emails until we could finally meet up for our date near his home. We decided to keep our relationship under a cap for now so things wouldn’t be awkward for the rest of his family. From what I heard, Kat was going through some very difficult times what with the press blokes and some people that had shown up calling themselves his ‘parents’. I had asked Lukwos if they had any idea of what was going on between us. After a moment of thought he shook his head and said, “In his normal state, Kat would have been right onto us, no question. He’s got too much going on right now and is more focused on that.” Hesitating a bit he quietly added, “He really wants to marry Massak and make a brighter future for everyone too.”

So I had grabbed his hand and we had gone on our first date. He didn’t take me to big fancy places, which suited a bloke like me just fine. We just walked around the city, shared ice cream, and a few drinks, holding hands the entire time.

That first date had left me giddy and feeling like I was flying while still on earth and I couldn’t wait to see him again.

The next time we’d arranged a date, he told Kat and the others he wouldn’t be back until the day after due to a business engagement.  That evening he took me to a nice cozy tavern for a dinner together. We enjoyed it and there wasn’t any moment of silence or boredom between us. I felt like I was with an old friend I had known all my life but with the heat and spark of love driving us.

At the end of the meal we both fell speechless for the first time. Reaching for his hand as he reached for mine I asked, “Think we could have a place for…some private time tonight, mate?”

His smile was even brighter than usual when he replied, “I was worried I would get ahead of myself…if I had asked you to spend the night with me.”
That night was our first explosion ever…and it felt like my very first one too.

We hadn’t said the “L” word yet at all but we both felt it growing inside us like an oasis to my point of view.

The dates and phone calls were going better than I could have ever wished to a star of the sky in the outback. One day I saw all three of them on TV doing an interview to settle the rumors and other stories about them. I couldn’t help but smile and laugh my ass off to the point of scaring my colleagues when I saw the way they handled it. I had a totally different reaction to Lukwos showing off his acrobatics, though. This was one of the first times I wanted to scream, “This is my amazing boyfriend!”

One of my colleagues happened to pick that moment to ask, “Aren’t those two the freaks you had to take up north in god knows what kind of emergency?”

I had snapped my head toward him so quick he’d taken a step back. “They’d be the most bonzer mob of blokes I’ve I ever had to transport since I started this job. I’m proud to call meself their mate.” My Aussie comes out when I get angry, so they knew I was serious.

“Yeah it’s true,” another coworker chimed in, “they invited you to a Christmas party, didn’t they? You’ve been different since then.” “Guess they won you over, eh?” another sniggered.

I didn’t know what to say at that point and, suddenly I the trio’s ‘face the facts’ attitude in the interview. I got up, grabbed my mug of coffee. “They did before that, but yeah something happened since that Christmas
night.” Throwing a glare around the room, I continued, “I opened up to my feelings and I am now exclusive and in love with that wolf that you saw on TV.” Heading for the door to check my next route, I went on. “You saw them fight on TV, and you know my background. Watch yer arses if any of y’ratbags thinks we might not be blokey enough to defend ourselves.” A scattering of applause followed me out the room.

Later that evening, Lukwos had called me to tell me they were ready to head to Massak’s village as soon as I was. I headed to the boss’ office to tell him they’d need me and the plane for about a month. “Good thing the boss is mates with Lukwos’ pop. Knows he won’t be askin’ for what he don’t need. Gets a mate’s rate, too.” After the chat with my boss, I called Lukwos back to tell him I’d see him next week for our date and take them to Massak’s village the following week. “By the way,” he slyly inserted just before hanging up, “Kat is feeling better and has figured out about us.” I darn near fell on my tail.

Our last date in civilization went great even if we spent most of the day at their place this then the evening at a restaurant. We just wanted to reassure ourselves with the other’s presence.

I was then finally able to fight by their side. I felt like I could finally make a difference in this world. All the difference was being able to fight back-to-back with people I could trust and the wolf I wanted by my side.

At last Kat and Massak’s wedding came, after a bachelor party of sorts.
The day after I saw Lukwos was acting very unusual – to the point that I’d wondered if he changed his mind about us. It seemed like something was eating him apart from the inside. There were a few hours that I couldn’t find him, so I asked Kat if he’d seen Lukwos. “Yes, he came to talk to me about a few things. I think he’s gone to see Nilak for advice,” he had told me.

I knew he wouldn’t tell me more, so I ran toward Nilak's quarters in the hope to find him before he went elsewhere. I found him leaving Nilak's room and thanking her for her point of view when I arrived next to him. Barely sparing me a glance, he dragged me back to our room and silently closed the door behind us. He was breathing heavily and not looking at me in the eyes he said, “We have to talk…”

My breath caught as I imagined the happy times with him coming to such a sudden end. Until he added “…I would like you to move in with us…mostly me. Please.” He had come toward me and held my hands saying, “I love you, my amazing chocolate canine, I love everything about you. You are courageous, sweet, I know you can defend yourself in our crazy life…I know you are my partner in it. And…I want to have you by my side.”

He was looking at me with his bright smile, a hint of worry in his scent, and was probably waiting for my answer. I swallowed the knot in my throat and answered carefully, “This…this is right out of the sky with no warning there, my sweet fluff. You just told me for the first time that you loved me too…and now us moving together to fight side by side?”
He gave me a nod and said “I am convinced you are the one for me. The one I waited all my life and…have probably given you a good freak out by saying that.”

I shook my head and gathered him into my arms. “NOT AT ALL!” I shouted, holding him tight. “I thought you were about to break up with me,” looking into his eyes, I continued, “Truely I love you too my sweet fluff…this is just so sudden. I have a job, a dream to buy my own plane one day. And my job would keep me away from you often even if we move in together…my scars would keep me from getting a job at your photo agency even if I had the courage to do advertising.”

He had maneuvered me onto the bed and hovered above me saying, “I know this is sudden, but every time I imagine being away from you my heart hurts. My soul screams for you to be by my side. I know it’s also a lot to ask, but if you quit your job I will save every penny to buy you the best plane you could want, and even sell my designer clothes and anything else worth a dime. I will take all the jobs I can to make enough money for it.” He then leaned closer to me and added “At least…think about it please.” Then kissed me, leading to us making love once again and sleeping with him holding me close to him.


Or mostly him sleeping as I kept thinking about all the consequences. I knew he would want an answer as soon as possible so worry wouldn’t eat at his heart. I felt like I needed to talk to someone about it, and to my point of view Massak was the most adapted for it, or even Kat, if they weren’t busy together.

So I snuck out of bed and walked through the corridor until I reached their room, knocking on the door softly. After hardly a minute I heard Kat say, “Come in Joe, I promise we are presentable.”

I was still surprised he could smell or sense it was me, but I walked in slowly to find them both wearing fuzzy animal skin pants and sitting by the fire. Kat was cradling Massak in his arms while Massak was reading a book. Kat simply radiated happiness to have Massak in his arms. “He asked you, didn’t he?” Massak’s question broke the quiet scene.

I nodded, as they motioned me to take a seat in front of them and Kat said, “I’d bet you want to talk, so can we offer you a drink?”

A sigh escaped me as I sat. “Any chance you have something strong, please?” Kat pulled out a bottle of homebrew from behind the couch and used his ice powers to create 3 frosty glasses before serving us all. I knew they were waiting for me to begin, so I took a deep breath. “Yes, he asked me to move in with ya mob of mates. And don’t misunderstand me I, really love him. I just wonder if it’s not too fast.”

We were all sipping our drinks for moment in silence when Massak said, “If you are here, I suppose you would like our points of view, yes?” I nodded at him and kept sipping at my drink. “I suppose I am the one the most adapted to give you my point of view due to my past experience.” He paused, seeming to gather his thoughts before continuing, “Keep in mind that even Kat was new to the situation as well; he knew fighting but never had a love, unlike you and Lukwos. But he grew into magic so was more accustomed to hearing its calls, even if he’d never been attracted to someone before.” He rubbed his cheek on Kat’s chest and said, “Me, I didn’t know I could be attracted to another man that much, but every time he was close I didn’t want to let him go. I wanted him near me even if I was trying to fight it at first.”
He cocked his head to the side, questioningly, “Do you have a… special sensation, like an electric feeling… flowing through your body when you hold or kiss Lukwos?”

I nodded at him again silently. He then asked, “Do you feel the need to have him in your arms, to touch him like your life depends on it when he is close to you?” I found myself unable to even nod, and swallowed again, this time trying to clear my suddenly dry throat. Massak simply raised an eyebrow and said, “Really, I think that is all the proof you need to see that you are both destined to be together.”

“If,” Kat chimed in, “you need time to think about it, I am sure Lukwos will understand. When it comes to big decisions, he isn’t a pushy kind of guy. But if you do accept his offer, it would be a sincere pleasure to have you by our sides.”

I thanked them and excused myself for bothering them then walked back to the room I was sharing with Lukwos. “The room that I share with Lukwos,” the thought stopped me in my tracks. It seems so normal, so natural to share a room with him. I think about our times together and how it seems so flawless. We are both our own individual, but we complete each other like Massak and Kat. We are two pieces of the same puzzle, again like our good mates.

I remember how I felt the pinch in my heart when Lukwos was away from his trial, like Massak had said. The answer was right in front of me. I wanted to be with him, and be away from him the minimum possible. I wanted to share my life with him.

I bolted like a maniac back to our room, nearly dropping on all fours to gain speed. The moment I arrived in front of our door he was walking out of it, and I tackled him before holding him in my arms. He was flat on his back staring at me in surprise when I nearly shouted, “I love you my sweet fluff! I want to spend my life with you! I’ll give anything to move in with you and be your partner on the battlefield and in life.”

Tears began rolling down his face. “Are…are you sure?” he asked, voice shaking.

I gave him a quick kiss on his muzzle. “Hell yeah, fluffy mate! Forget the plane, if I get it one day well it would be extra luck. You are my dream, the one I was searching for, the one giving me purpose. You are the one that matters and you give me a reason to fight.”

We’d kissed again before he rolled from under me, lifted me up and took me to our bed to celebrate the first step of our life together in our own special way.
so, as i promised, here is the bonus story i promised  for the second book when the sales reached the level needed.

like last time i made a poll to see what people were wanting to read about. And the question about Joe and Lukwos came out.

so i accepted the challenge and there it is.

Since Joe is Australian expect a LOT of Australian slang in this one.

hope you will all enjoy it.
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awww this is adorable. i like how they can't get each other out of their head ;)