under this sky i look up at the stars and start thinking....

well
today i made a new step in life , i passed into my 30s . now am even older, i bet some gonna say am an old fart and stuff like that. but i admit to me my age dont make any diffrence about myself
or maybe in a way it does ...
when i get to 30 an i see my grandma not wanting to see me that day because her son didnt made it that far i wonder about myself.
it makes me think about my best friend and other people i loved of wich i been luckyer.
so in a way it makes me realise that am lucky yeah and so i dont mind to get older personally.
but on the other side it makes me wonder about them too...

also might be silly and i know i had a pretty good day overall. but i dont now how to react and feel a kind of void to the fact that most of the people i love are so far away from me still and couldnt be by my side for it.
i dont really know how to explain what i feel and mean and i know it must sound prett selfish too saying it like that....
but its true that making it to my 30 made me wonder a lot about myself and people i know all day.

i dont think my way of seeing and "engaging" life will change. but such stuff happened this year that i think i grew up a lot too.

even if i admit some "wounds" arent closed yet and some "scars" still hurt a bit at times....

anyway like i said i keep my way of seeing life and so lets go on a more funny subject EUROFURENCE 15 !!!!!

yep like i said i ll be there lol . i got a table at the dealer' den and i got a panel to fill at the artshow .
am working on a lot of original works in pastel and pencil for the artshow wich i hope to sell there , when they are more advanced i ll most probably post a preview of them here. but so far i dont have anything good enough to show.

so dont worry i ll post new stuff soon )
and now the eurofurence meme heheh

copied from Mantitaur and changed it a bit

Where are you staying?
main hotel , no idea of the room yet lol

What day are you getting there?
normally the tuesday before EF

What day are you leaving?
the first if no change

Who will you be with?
my roomie raghan and his ex griff should share the room with me and i should travel with raghan , redwolf , shiron

Do you do free art or trades?
i ll be doing arts but cant promise if i ll have the time for free or trades until am there

What suit(s) will you have?
i should have lukwos and normally karmakat fursuit (if i received it on time)


Can I dance with you?
SURE i love to dance )

You're talking to someone, and I would like to say hi, but don't know how, what can I do?
just come say hi , i ll be more than happy to meet u )

What is your gender?
male

How old are you?
30

How tall are you?
1.93m

Are you mated?
one day maybe

Can I touch you?
arms for sure , rest of areas to see with cautions lol (dont wanna break my suit lol) and some areas are private lol

Can I talk to you?
hell yeah ,im allways glad to but dont be surprised if i dont allways know what to say at first

Can I hug you?
PLEASE YEAH )

Can I take photos of you/with you?
sure regular and hug pictures are more than welcome

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
sure but no carbonated drinks i prefer tea and vodka lol

Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
a little and no

Can I give you lots of money?
hm except if u wanna buy me a drawing on the artshow or a commission i wouldnt know why u would want to

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
hugs HELL YEAH , snuggles it depends if i know u enough (except if we just do it for fun in a pose for a picture maybe)

Can we hang out?
yeah sure , can be fun)

Are you nice?
i can be very nice as long as u ont give me any reason to dont be. but be warn i say stuff very straightly in what i think . i prefer to allways talk my mind

Where will you be most of the time during the con?
i guess as much fursuiting as i can , then lots in the dealers den , artshow and most probably lobby and dancing at evenings/nights

Other cons you may go to?
im dreaming to go to AC one day if i get the money and vacation

well here are more questions . so feel free to ask other stuff if needed
i hope to meet a lot of u at the EF 15 and
THANKS SO MUCH TO ALL MY FRIENDS THAT WISHED ME MY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!